Day of Rest

I am doing the book of Luke bible study with Blessed beyond a doubt and I started the study early..I know right that down...I AM EARLY. LOL

I haven't done my S.O.A.P. for the day simply because I didn't get around to it. I know I know so bad. I did spend time in God's word today through the sermon at church based on Genesis 6-9 (various verses) and how we can be forgiven and start over.

I also got to see my wonderful beautiful step daughter Shelbie. I love her as she was my own flesh and blood. In my daily prayer list is Shelbie and her grandparents..I am asking for softened hearts...with out shelbie in our lives their is a void..a piece of us is missing constantly. I know there are many children of divorce who suffer through this and I know I am not the only step parent out there who feels helpless.

I want to scream sometimes, I miss her and I cant do anything to change that. I am the Step parent, I have no rights and my wishes are never herd. Chandler is missing a sister, Shelbie is missing a sister and I am missing a daughter. My heart is heavy.

So today I ask for prayers. This is in God's hands and only He knows the future. Only God knows the outcome of this. Only He can fix this.

Please pray for peace among the parents and God's will be done.

I am taking a day of rest...as I am so tired and drained.

I miss my two girls under one roof.

Carolyn